"Mouth Shut"

---I love The Veronicas---

It's supposed to be hard to keep secrets, but when it's something you're ashamed of, it can sometimes be the easiest thing in the world.

Shame is different than guilt. Guilt indicates regret. It spills from your lips, begs to be drained from your pores, so you can be rid of it. You genuinely wish the act that has created it had never been commited. A secret drenched in guilt is the hardest to keep, because something within you just wants to expell it. Let it be gone forever, let it never be back. Shame is different than guilt.

Shame is different than guilt. Shame leads to awkward silences, no words at all. Shame is desire. When guilt begs to be freed, shame wants to fade and hide away. No words, no words. Shame is the secret, so by not speaking, the secret is not created, it is maintained. What is shame? What? So naive now? You've felt it. Something so wrong, you knwo you shouldn't have done it, thought it, felt it, but honestly, something in you enjoys it, or doesn't want it to change. You know it's wrong, but you don't feel it, you can't convince yourself to believe it. If you want it so bad, and it feels so good, why is it wrong? Why should you stop? If you know it was the only option, and you wouldn't take it back, why is it wrong? Why confess? If it's so wrong, but you believe in it so much, what's wrong with you?

So this one is all my own. A guilty pleasure so deep, it's not for my brain twin, not for Nadine. For me and for God. I don't want to give it up, and He knows where it ends, so no need for sharing now. For now, it's just our little secret.

...You thought you knew me but you don't, you say you'll love me but you wont, when you find out who I am...