Wednesday, April 28, 2010

"Mind"

---I love Los Hollywood---

---Grad Nite Friday---


---Prom Saturday---


Now into my head...

Sometimes I hate you.
I'll never be good enough. Nothing is ever good enough. You know what bothers me, but you don't care, then act surprise when I react. Real mature.
Sometimes I hate you.

Hey, you. Sometimes I think I love you.
But I don't.
You say I'm never satisfied. It kills me to hear that. That makes me like her. I don't want you to hate me. And you claim you don't. But I can never be sure with you.
It doesn't matter either way.
Hey, you. Sometimes I think I love you.

...I can't feel the pain when I'm bleeding, it only takes away my mind. No matter what everyone is thinking, when I live in my own world. My heart blows away as I see, and butterflies call out, and even though nobody can see, you are inside my mind...

Angel. Sometimes I thought I was you.
But I'm not.
Angel. Sometimes I thought I was you.

Sister, sister. Sometimes I know we'll be forever.
I hope I'm right. What can I do without you? Sometimes you're not even here when you're sitting right next to me, and I know I ask for alot, but I depend solely on you. You're everything for me. I expect you to be everything. But you can't be. Then we're silent. Sorry for letting you down. I feel like I let everyone down that night. But that doesn't matter. All that I care about is that you were unhappy.
Sister, sister. Sometimes I know we'll be forever.

So, mister demon.
Come engulf me.
Swallow me whole.
Tear me apart.
So, mister demon.
Come swallow me whole.

2 comments:

  1. i hope you're right too, because it still scares me to think about the next few years.
    but don't put everything on yourself.
    it's not like my attitude helped any.
    and i don't think emily cared either way.
    she was oblivious.
    but we'll make it better.
    it's already sounding better than last time.
    except for one glitch that starts with an M.

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  2. Nice pictures, it looks like you had fun at grad night and prom! And ah, it sounds like you're going through some somewhat tough times. I hope things look up for you soon!

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