"To Drunk to F*ck"

---I love Nouvelle Vague---

I feel amazing tonight. I'm spinning on high. Just good. Kind of a surprise over how intense yesterday was. Despite the anti-climatic ending.

*me*driving*
mom "you know i was watching a CNN story about a mother who strangled her daughter to death"
*me*still*driving* "why?"
mom "the daughter used to be such a good girl, then she started doing bad things, and the mom just couldn't deal with it anymore"
*silence*
aleena "put my princess CD on?"

I guess, being caught always seems worse in our heads. I mean, of all the things I get caught for, it never causes consequences as bad as I imagine.

I played matchmaker for them. Finally helped her find her balls, and now they're in the hands of the juggler! So, despite the fact that I no longer have a prom date, which will be a disappointment to my dear mother, I'm extrememly happy that she does. I was never the type to want one anyway. And they're gonna look so awkwardly cute together. I'm even more excited for prom now, then I was before.

And, today, I took it in doses. Thought about it constantly, but just had tiny drops here and there. I'm used to gulping down. That worries me a little bit. What if it means that I'm going to start weaning off of it. I would hate that. But, of course, I'm an overanalyzer. It doesn't mean anything. I know I won't stop wanting it, and I hope I don't stop getting it for a long time. There's not indication to worry yet. Regardless, I just wanted to say, I'm still ecstatic. So damn happy, it's weird.

Yeah, tonight was a good night.

=)

I wanna be in California.