Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Monday, November 2, 2009
"Hug Me"
---I love Meg & Dia---
Shut up,
Stop speaking
It's my turn now.
No time
For breathing
We're both falling down.
What's bothering me? Ha, funny that you'd ask...
Annoyance #1: My iPod, Donny, (yes, I named my iPod, and no, that is not immature) decided that even he wants to mess with me and declared that Chris Brown's face is the actual CD cover for Here, Here and Here by Meg & Dia. Everytime I go to turn up the volume, there is Chris Brown, staring at me. Argh.
Annoyance #2: My mother is worried that I am going to try to murder her.... well, actually, that one tickles me a little bit. She even locked the gun away. Nice.
Annoyance #3: My dad is pissed off at me because the suicidal thoughts that my mom is convinced that I'm having is such an inconvenience for him. He's convinced that all I need to do to change back into who I used to be is take some vitamins and exercise more.
Annoyance #4: I've realized that I've become quite the complainer lately, or maybe I'm just losing my grip, I don't know, but it's like everyone is walking on eggshells around me, even my mother won't do her playful guilt teasing thing, because she's scared I'll just fall apart. My friends are even saying I need help; when did I get so lost?
Annoyance #5: My doctor and my mom could be best friends. They have very similar interests.
Annoyance #6: I really want to call him up and say "I don't owe you anything. I don't like you. Get over it. You have no chance with me. You're needy, you disgust me, and that is honestly the truth. I don't care enough about you to avoid you. Do you still "love" me now?"
Awkard Silences More Extended than that Stupid Essay I turned in Last Week:
-ARE YOU SUICIDAL?
-YOU CAN TELL ME ANYTHING. liar.
-WHY DO YOU WANT TO SEE HIM?
-YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU, RIGHT?
-DO YOU LIKE TO SEE ME CRY?
-YOU'RE SUCH A SMART GIRL, WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS?
-IT'S SICK THAT YOU LIKE PAIN. i never said that.
-WHAT DID I DO WRONG?
-YOU'RE PRETTY, BUT YOU KNOW THAT.
-YOU NEED HELP
- I'LL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU. liar.
- IT'S NOT SUPPOSED TO BE LIKE THIS.
-OF COURSE I UNDERSTAND, I KNOW YOU.
-WHY?
My mother is amazing. We were watching some E! Investigates special about a girl who goes missing, and upon seeing her, my mom comments on how pretty she is. Only she said it in a really judgemental way. Like "why would they kill her, she's soooo pretty," and like it sounds like a normal thing to say, but it was something in her voice which made it a ridiculous statement, I can't explain, maybe it was a "you had to have been there" kinda thing. I don't know. So I ask her, "why do you say that? if she was ugly would she have been more deserving to die?"... She makes that confused innocent face. "No, it's just that it's sad that such a horrible thing happened to her, and I wanted to give her a compliment..." This confuses me, so I say "so what if she'd been ugly? would you have said the same thing?" She says, "No, if she had been ugly, I would have called her smart." Nice.
Oh! And I almost forgot to say. For Halloween, I was Captain Underpants. It was pretty kickass.
Shut up,
Stop speaking
It's my turn now.
No time
For breathing
We're both falling down.
What's bothering me? Ha, funny that you'd ask...
Annoyance #1: My iPod, Donny, (yes, I named my iPod, and no, that is not immature) decided that even he wants to mess with me and declared that Chris Brown's face is the actual CD cover for Here, Here and Here by Meg & Dia. Everytime I go to turn up the volume, there is Chris Brown, staring at me. Argh.
Annoyance #2: My mother is worried that I am going to try to murder her.... well, actually, that one tickles me a little bit. She even locked the gun away. Nice.
Annoyance #3: My dad is pissed off at me because the suicidal thoughts that my mom is convinced that I'm having is such an inconvenience for him. He's convinced that all I need to do to change back into who I used to be is take some vitamins and exercise more.
Annoyance #4: I've realized that I've become quite the complainer lately, or maybe I'm just losing my grip, I don't know, but it's like everyone is walking on eggshells around me, even my mother won't do her playful guilt teasing thing, because she's scared I'll just fall apart. My friends are even saying I need help; when did I get so lost?
Annoyance #5: My doctor and my mom could be best friends. They have very similar interests.
Annoyance #6: I really want to call him up and say "I don't owe you anything. I don't like you. Get over it. You have no chance with me. You're needy, you disgust me, and that is honestly the truth. I don't care enough about you to avoid you. Do you still "love" me now?"
Awkard Silences More Extended than that Stupid Essay I turned in Last Week:
-ARE YOU SUICIDAL?
-YOU CAN TELL ME ANYTHING. liar.
-WHY DO YOU WANT TO SEE HIM?
-YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU, RIGHT?
-DO YOU LIKE TO SEE ME CRY?
-YOU'RE SUCH A SMART GIRL, WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS?
-IT'S SICK THAT YOU LIKE PAIN. i never said that.
-WHAT DID I DO WRONG?
-YOU'RE PRETTY, BUT YOU KNOW THAT.
-YOU NEED HELP
- I'LL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU. liar.
- IT'S NOT SUPPOSED TO BE LIKE THIS.
-OF COURSE I UNDERSTAND, I KNOW YOU.
-WHY?
My mother is amazing. We were watching some E! Investigates special about a girl who goes missing, and upon seeing her, my mom comments on how pretty she is. Only she said it in a really judgemental way. Like "why would they kill her, she's soooo pretty," and like it sounds like a normal thing to say, but it was something in her voice which made it a ridiculous statement, I can't explain, maybe it was a "you had to have been there" kinda thing. I don't know. So I ask her, "why do you say that? if she was ugly would she have been more deserving to die?"... She makes that confused innocent face. "No, it's just that it's sad that such a horrible thing happened to her, and I wanted to give her a compliment..." This confuses me, so I say "so what if she'd been ugly? would you have said the same thing?" She says, "No, if she had been ugly, I would have called her smart." Nice.
Oh! And I almost forgot to say. For Halloween, I was Captain Underpants. It was pretty kickass.
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